August 18th, 2016
I was scheduled to go in for my blood draw on Friday, August 5th, but I started to bleed Tuesday and then Wednesday my period started and came with a vengeance. (Something about all the additional hormones made it feel like someone was stabbing me in the ovaries. To say I was sad it didn't work is the understatement of the year.
I. was. crushed. I still am crushed and it's been 2 weeks later. I mean we even had a picture of our cute little embryos, just to learn that my body is broken.
The only hope I have is that we have a frozen embryo cycle, another fresh cycle, and possibly one more fresh cycle.
If all of those don't work, I don't even know how I'm going to move on. My life is so different from what i thought it would be. I'm trying to look on the bright side, but it gets really hard to live life when all I want to do is have a kid.
Luckily, we went to California and that kept my mind off of of our situation right now.
Sunday, May 14, 2017
Vivid Dreams while waiting
Aug 2nd 2016
Maybe I'm just too anxious, but this whole two week waiting period is KILLING me! I'm trying to stay busy, but my mind always wanders back to wanting to know if it worked or not.. One thing I have noticed though (besides the leakynesss from Progesterone), is that my dreams have been very horrible and vivid. For example:
A couple of nights ago, probably Saturday night, I had a dream that I had to teach the CTR 5 class in Primary. There were a ton of kids and even 3 or 4 parents that were there, but the kids would not settle down. I even made a really great dessert and they still wouldn't listen. At that point in the dream, I just started to yell at them. They didn't care. I woke up so angry and anxious. The dream felt so real. I must have been nervous that all my assignments were taken care of that Sunday.
I know I had another dream in between then and yesterday, but don't remember what it was.
Last night, I had two dreams: The first one basically there was a bad guy getting ready to blow up a mine shaft with hundreds of people in it. We were in the blasting zone and tried to stop it. I must have woken up or changed dreams before the ending, because I don't know what happened. I just remember jolting awake.
Part 2 of last night: I had to go back to college for some reason. I was in my apartment with my friends Emily, and Sara, and we were reminiscing about our college days (even though in real life they did not go to that college with me) Then out of nowhere, our building that was like 20 stories tall crushed the three of us while we were in the room against an adjacent building, but we were still conscious. The strange thing is that I knew it was going to fall on us before it happened. The last thing I remembered before I woke up is the three of us holding on to the outside railing, just waiting for the building to completely fall and kill us. So weird. It took me a while this morning to realize it wasn't real.
All this anxiety isn't good for my babies that are hopefully growing... Maybe this is a common thing that happens.
Maybe I'm just too anxious, but this whole two week waiting period is KILLING me! I'm trying to stay busy, but my mind always wanders back to wanting to know if it worked or not.. One thing I have noticed though (besides the leakynesss from Progesterone), is that my dreams have been very horrible and vivid. For example:
A couple of nights ago, probably Saturday night, I had a dream that I had to teach the CTR 5 class in Primary. There were a ton of kids and even 3 or 4 parents that were there, but the kids would not settle down. I even made a really great dessert and they still wouldn't listen. At that point in the dream, I just started to yell at them. They didn't care. I woke up so angry and anxious. The dream felt so real. I must have been nervous that all my assignments were taken care of that Sunday.
I know I had another dream in between then and yesterday, but don't remember what it was.
Last night, I had two dreams: The first one basically there was a bad guy getting ready to blow up a mine shaft with hundreds of people in it. We were in the blasting zone and tried to stop it. I must have woken up or changed dreams before the ending, because I don't know what happened. I just remember jolting awake.
Part 2 of last night: I had to go back to college for some reason. I was in my apartment with my friends Emily, and Sara, and we were reminiscing about our college days (even though in real life they did not go to that college with me) Then out of nowhere, our building that was like 20 stories tall crushed the three of us while we were in the room against an adjacent building, but we were still conscious. The strange thing is that I knew it was going to fall on us before it happened. The last thing I remembered before I woke up is the three of us holding on to the outside railing, just waiting for the building to completely fall and kill us. So weird. It took me a while this morning to realize it wasn't real.
All this anxiety isn't good for my babies that are hopefully growing... Maybe this is a common thing that happens.
The waiting game (Two Week Wait)
July 29th, 2016
It has now been 5dp3dt or 5 days past the 3 day transfer (trust me, there are SO many acronyms when trying to get pregnant) and I have been taking the progesterone twice a day. My absolute favorite part of taking that is when I have to get up in the middle of the night 2-3 times to pee...oh, and it gives me all the signs of being pregnant - sore breasts, feeling crampy, always hungry (wait... that could just be me), ALWAYS tired. It is definitely my favorite part of this little adventure.
I've been trying to stay busy at work (which has been picking up), playing soccer, primary calling, and planning for California in August, but there are still times where I'll google symptoms or blogs about fertility for hours. I know it's not healthy, but I can't help it sometimes.
This weekend is going to be hectic: primary parade, helping neighbors move, fixing our sprinklers, soccer, wedding receptions, laundry, etc....so hopefully I'll continue to stay busy while we wait.
It has now been 5dp3dt or 5 days past the 3 day transfer (trust me, there are SO many acronyms when trying to get pregnant) and I have been taking the progesterone twice a day. My absolute favorite part of taking that is when I have to get up in the middle of the night 2-3 times to pee...oh, and it gives me all the signs of being pregnant - sore breasts, feeling crampy, always hungry (wait... that could just be me), ALWAYS tired. It is definitely my favorite part of this little adventure.
I've been trying to stay busy at work (which has been picking up), playing soccer, primary calling, and planning for California in August, but there are still times where I'll google symptoms or blogs about fertility for hours. I know it's not healthy, but I can't help it sometimes.
This weekend is going to be hectic: primary parade, helping neighbors move, fixing our sprinklers, soccer, wedding receptions, laundry, etc....so hopefully I'll continue to stay busy while we wait.
How many Embryos did we get?
Friday, July 22nd - I got a call from the Reproductive Care Center at about 3:40. I had been waiting for this call ALL DAY! I was so worried that we wouldn't have any embryos to transfer. So she (Rachel) called me and I had to three-way call Nate, so he could hear the news. Guys, we have 4 embryos!! I can't even believe it!
She said that of the 11 eggs they retrieved, 6 were mature, and 4 fertilized! I know they are just embryos but those are possibly our future children! I've waited for 2 years to hear that news. So the plan is to freeze 2 embryos and do a fresh cycle with 2 embryos! This is happening on Sunday and I couldn't be more excited! By 12:15 pm on Sunday, I will officially be "pregnant".
I'm so grateful for so many things like that fact that my insurance covers infertility costs, and that both Nate and I have worked really hard to get to where we are. I feel one step closer to having our family started!
Sunday, July 24th - Today is the day! I woke up at 7:00 am because I couldn't sleep anymore. I'm feeling really anxious and excited about today. We are going to do 2 embryos in hopes that at least one is sticky! I hope it's as painful as an IUI, and nothing worse. These last couple days since the retrieval, I've taken it really easy because I've been super crampy. They have me taking progesterone suppositories (not fun) twice a day, so I have to wear a liner because I leak :( It's really uncomfortable, and if I get pregnant, I have to do them for like 12 weeks. But it will all be worth it if I get a baby from it!
So... we got there at 11:45 and the nurse talked to us about the procedure. Dr. Swelstad also came in to talk to us. He told us that we had 4 viable embryos and one that was not growing as fast as the others and would probably be discarded. Of the 4 embryos, 2 were in the "excellent" category (this is the example embryo that all other embryos should look like, 8 cells and everything), 1 in the "good" category (8 cells still, but a some anomalies), and 1 in the "fair"category (only 6 cells). We decided to do one "excellent" and one "fair" and freeze the other two for the next time. Here is a picture of our two potential kids!!
embryo pics
To get a little technical with you: I have a high FSH (16) and low AMH (.9) which translates to my eggs feel like they are 35 instead of my actual age. With the egg quality so terrible, it was hard to see if anything would really work, hence the 5% chance we would be able to have kids.
When one does IVF, the doctors usually like to grow the embryos to day 5 before the transfer. So after we did the 3-day transfer and when my wandering fingers went to google, I started to get really worried that we didn't wait long enough for them to grow and that our percentage that the embryos would work was even smaller. I called my nurse Jeanette and asked her about this. She told me a couple things: 1. It is not very common for there to be an excellent quality embryo. She said they tell patients that it rarely happens, but not to expect it, and we got 2 of them!! 2. The reason they did the 3 day transfer, was because they wanted to have something to transfer. Due to my high FSH levels, they were worried that if they let the embryos grow to day 5, none of them would make it and we would have nothing. So that's what we did. We froze the other two 3-day embryos and hoped we don't have to use them for a while.
We didn't tell anyone that we were doing the transfer today. We told our family that my progesterone level was higher than normal (which is true) and that we wanted to wait a cycle for my levels to be normal. So we would have to wait another cycle before we could freeze any. So, if this works, it will kind of be a surprise for them!
The Embryo Transfer:
I took 1 of the 2 Valium pills to help my uterus relax (which is better for the procedure I guess) and got dressed in my awesome scrubbies! Nate was in the room too, so he needed to have his outfit too.
I have had several inseminations before so I kinda knew what kind of pain to expect. He put in the speculum, and flushed out my area with a special liquid. Then the nurse knocked on the embryologist's door to tell her he was ready. She then turned on the giant TV to my left and showed us the petri dish with our two embryos in it! She (Sasha) then took a catheter, stuck it in the petri dish, and we watched the two embryos get sucked up in the culture medium.
She then handed the catheter to the doctor who then put the embryos where they needed to be, and released them. This was all done through ultrasound, but my uterus is tipped and my left ovary was casting a shadow, so we couldn't actually see the release of the embryos :( (STUPID OVARY!) After that, we stayed in the room for a little while, got dressed, and went home.
My blood draw to see if I'm pregnant is Aug 5th (SO LONG AWAYYY!), so if I am, we are going to California that next week and we can surprise my in-laws! I'm really excited, but super scared that it might not work and we'll have to go through this ALL over again...
She said that of the 11 eggs they retrieved, 6 were mature, and 4 fertilized! I know they are just embryos but those are possibly our future children! I've waited for 2 years to hear that news. So the plan is to freeze 2 embryos and do a fresh cycle with 2 embryos! This is happening on Sunday and I couldn't be more excited! By 12:15 pm on Sunday, I will officially be "pregnant".
I'm so grateful for so many things like that fact that my insurance covers infertility costs, and that both Nate and I have worked really hard to get to where we are. I feel one step closer to having our family started!
Sunday, July 24th - Today is the day! I woke up at 7:00 am because I couldn't sleep anymore. I'm feeling really anxious and excited about today. We are going to do 2 embryos in hopes that at least one is sticky! I hope it's as painful as an IUI, and nothing worse. These last couple days since the retrieval, I've taken it really easy because I've been super crampy. They have me taking progesterone suppositories (not fun) twice a day, so I have to wear a liner because I leak :( It's really uncomfortable, and if I get pregnant, I have to do them for like 12 weeks. But it will all be worth it if I get a baby from it!
So... we got there at 11:45 and the nurse talked to us about the procedure. Dr. Swelstad also came in to talk to us. He told us that we had 4 viable embryos and one that was not growing as fast as the others and would probably be discarded. Of the 4 embryos, 2 were in the "excellent" category (this is the example embryo that all other embryos should look like, 8 cells and everything), 1 in the "good" category (8 cells still, but a some anomalies), and 1 in the "fair"category (only 6 cells). We decided to do one "excellent" and one "fair" and freeze the other two for the next time. Here is a picture of our two potential kids!!
embryo pics
To get a little technical with you: I have a high FSH (16) and low AMH (.9) which translates to my eggs feel like they are 35 instead of my actual age. With the egg quality so terrible, it was hard to see if anything would really work, hence the 5% chance we would be able to have kids.
When one does IVF, the doctors usually like to grow the embryos to day 5 before the transfer. So after we did the 3-day transfer and when my wandering fingers went to google, I started to get really worried that we didn't wait long enough for them to grow and that our percentage that the embryos would work was even smaller. I called my nurse Jeanette and asked her about this. She told me a couple things: 1. It is not very common for there to be an excellent quality embryo. She said they tell patients that it rarely happens, but not to expect it, and we got 2 of them!! 2. The reason they did the 3 day transfer, was because they wanted to have something to transfer. Due to my high FSH levels, they were worried that if they let the embryos grow to day 5, none of them would make it and we would have nothing. So that's what we did. We froze the other two 3-day embryos and hoped we don't have to use them for a while.
We didn't tell anyone that we were doing the transfer today. We told our family that my progesterone level was higher than normal (which is true) and that we wanted to wait a cycle for my levels to be normal. So we would have to wait another cycle before we could freeze any. So, if this works, it will kind of be a surprise for them!
The Embryo Transfer:
I took 1 of the 2 Valium pills to help my uterus relax (which is better for the procedure I guess) and got dressed in my awesome scrubbies! Nate was in the room too, so he needed to have his outfit too.
I have had several inseminations before so I kinda knew what kind of pain to expect. He put in the speculum, and flushed out my area with a special liquid. Then the nurse knocked on the embryologist's door to tell her he was ready. She then turned on the giant TV to my left and showed us the petri dish with our two embryos in it! She (Sasha) then took a catheter, stuck it in the petri dish, and we watched the two embryos get sucked up in the culture medium.
She then handed the catheter to the doctor who then put the embryos where they needed to be, and released them. This was all done through ultrasound, but my uterus is tipped and my left ovary was casting a shadow, so we couldn't actually see the release of the embryos :( (STUPID OVARY!) After that, we stayed in the room for a little while, got dressed, and went home.
My blood draw to see if I'm pregnant is Aug 5th (SO LONG AWAYYY!), so if I am, we are going to California that next week and we can surprise my in-laws! I'm really excited, but super scared that it might not work and we'll have to go through this ALL over again...
More Shots and Egg Retrieval
Sunday July 17th - 9:45 AM Went in for another ultrasound and blood draw. There was one follicle that was 20 mm and a couple 18mm and a bunch of smaller ones. So with that, they wanted me to do stims for another day and then check and see and most likely trigger tomorrow and have the egg retrieval on Wednesday.
Monday, July 18th :7:45 am This was the first ultrasound with my actual doctor, Dr. Blauer. He was in Europe for a fertility conference and then stayed another week to go on vacation, but he is back for my egg retrieval which is good. This ultrasound, there were 5 mature follicles and 3 that were close. So instead of triggering tonight, he prescribed for one more day of stimulation and trigger Tuesday night, which would make the retrieval on Thursday. Also, my progesterone levels are much higher than they should be. They are at 3.5 and should be under 2. What does that mean? It means that there is a much smaller chance of the embryo implanting properly, so there has been talk of not doing a fresh cycle and freezing the embryos and waiting for the next cycle (August) so they can control my progesterone levels and have a higher chance of success.
I was kinda bummed after hearing this news, because of a couple reasons: 1. If it worked, we would be having an April baby, which is my birth month. 2. We have waited for 2 years for this and now have to wait another month. 3. There are so many hormones going through me that I'm on an emotional roller coaster.
If it is better to wait for the pregnancy rate to increase or stay the same (a whopping 10%) then I guess it will be worth it.
Tuesday, July 19th 7:45 am Dr. Harasaka did my ultrasound and he found 7 follicles that were good size and potentially mature. So the extra day of injections paid off, but my progesterone was at 3.9, which is a sign of pre-ovulation - not good for a timed IVF cycle.
So, here's the plan. Take more Gonal-F - 300 units at 9pm, and then trigger at 11:30pm.
Wednesday - take a pregnancy test at noon to make sure it's positive (that ensures that trigger shot absorbed) but NO SHOTS!! :) I took the pregnancy test at noon today and it was positive, so everything is looking ready for tomorrow.
Thursday - 10 am - sample collection and egg retrieval. We got there at 10 and sat with the nurse for a while to talk about what was going to happen at 10:30. I went into the room and changed my clothes into my fun gown and cap:
I went into the operating room and the anesthesiologist put in my IV and I was out less than 10 minutes later. The next thing I know, I was in a different room with Nate trying to wake me up. I remember saying something about Pokemon Go and some other random stuff. Nate recorded me. The good news is that they retrieved 11 EGGS! Eleven! I was shocked! There were 7 mature and 4 that weren't as mature. They will fertilize them all this afternoon and monitor them over the next 5 days, If there are enough to do a fresh cycle and freeze some, then that's what we'll do. If there's only two embryos then I think we will freeze them and wait next cycle so they can control my progesterone and give us a better success rate.
I got a blessing from Nate and my Dad last night and am thankful that my body has done what it's been prepped to do. I'm excited for the next couple of days to see if those little eggs will turn into embryos.
I couldn't upload the video of the retrieval but the doctor sticks a needle in through the vaginal wall and in my ovary to retrieve the egg sacs containing eggs called follicles.
Monday, July 18th :7:45 am This was the first ultrasound with my actual doctor, Dr. Blauer. He was in Europe for a fertility conference and then stayed another week to go on vacation, but he is back for my egg retrieval which is good. This ultrasound, there were 5 mature follicles and 3 that were close. So instead of triggering tonight, he prescribed for one more day of stimulation and trigger Tuesday night, which would make the retrieval on Thursday. Also, my progesterone levels are much higher than they should be. They are at 3.5 and should be under 2. What does that mean? It means that there is a much smaller chance of the embryo implanting properly, so there has been talk of not doing a fresh cycle and freezing the embryos and waiting for the next cycle (August) so they can control my progesterone levels and have a higher chance of success.
I was kinda bummed after hearing this news, because of a couple reasons: 1. If it worked, we would be having an April baby, which is my birth month. 2. We have waited for 2 years for this and now have to wait another month. 3. There are so many hormones going through me that I'm on an emotional roller coaster.
If it is better to wait for the pregnancy rate to increase or stay the same (a whopping 10%) then I guess it will be worth it.
Tuesday, July 19th 7:45 am Dr. Harasaka did my ultrasound and he found 7 follicles that were good size and potentially mature. So the extra day of injections paid off, but my progesterone was at 3.9, which is a sign of pre-ovulation - not good for a timed IVF cycle.
So, here's the plan. Take more Gonal-F - 300 units at 9pm, and then trigger at 11:30pm.
Wednesday - take a pregnancy test at noon to make sure it's positive (that ensures that trigger shot absorbed) but NO SHOTS!! :) I took the pregnancy test at noon today and it was positive, so everything is looking ready for tomorrow.
Thursday - 10 am - sample collection and egg retrieval. We got there at 10 and sat with the nurse for a while to talk about what was going to happen at 10:30. I went into the room and changed my clothes into my fun gown and cap:
I went into the operating room and the anesthesiologist put in my IV and I was out less than 10 minutes later. The next thing I know, I was in a different room with Nate trying to wake me up. I remember saying something about Pokemon Go and some other random stuff. Nate recorded me. The good news is that they retrieved 11 EGGS! Eleven! I was shocked! There were 7 mature and 4 that weren't as mature. They will fertilize them all this afternoon and monitor them over the next 5 days, If there are enough to do a fresh cycle and freeze some, then that's what we'll do. If there's only two embryos then I think we will freeze them and wait next cycle so they can control my progesterone and give us a better success rate.
I got a blessing from Nate and my Dad last night and am thankful that my body has done what it's been prepped to do. I'm excited for the next couple of days to see if those little eggs will turn into embryos.
I couldn't upload the video of the retrieval but the doctor sticks a needle in through the vaginal wall and in my ovary to retrieve the egg sacs containing eggs called follicles.
Here are all my follicles with the little tiny eggs inside.
It took me a little while to wake up, and I just relaxed the rest of the day. I'm not in too much pain which is good. Now we just play the waiting game.
First week of IVF - Cycle days 1-8
IVF #1 Process step by step
Sunday, July 3rd - Aunt Flow (late by 4 days, just to mess with me). Started to take Estradiol every 12 hours to slow my cycle
Friday, July 8th - Baseline ultrasound and blood draw. I have 12 follicles on my left ovary and 8 on the right. There may be a cyst on the left side. Blood results looked good and on Saturday I started taking Gonal F - 450 units and low dose HCG - 50 units
Monday July 11th - blood draw, continue with injections
Wednesday July 13th - blood draw and ultrasound. There were about 7 larger growing follicles and a handful of smaller ones during the ultrasound. There was also a little bump at my endometrial lining.. Not sure if it something to worry about. Hopefully it's not a blockage or something. So I was slightly emotional because I read that they can cancel the IVF cycle if there are not enough eggs to retrieve. I talked with my nurse, Jeanette, and she said, it is still early and there is still time for the smaller ones to grow. She said my numbers were a little lower than usual but she still said I was responding well to the treatment. Since Saturday, I have been injecting myself with the following:
Gonal-F FSH hormone- 450 units at night
Low Dose HCG - 50 units at night
Funny story: Last night (tuesday), we went to see the 8:55 pm showing of The Shallows (Crazy movie!). I have tried to stay consistent for my injections - taking them at 8:50 every night, so I brought my shots and had to have Nate give me the shots in the car before going into the theater. If anyone saw us, it would be like we were pushing drugs haha! Last nights shots hurt the worst for some reason. The previous days, it wasn't too bad. I must have hit a nerve or something...
So tonight, I'll do the same injections, and then tomorrow I'll do the following:
Gonal F- FSH hormone - 525 units at night
Low dose HCG - 50 units at night
Cetrotide - 1 Kit
Friday, July 15th Tonight I took 3 shots and they all hurt. I think it's getting in my head. I have 3 bruises on my stomach now and am running out of room to inject myself. I had an ultrasound and blood draw this morning and Dr Heiner found about 8 follicles that were getting bigger, so that's really good. He was much more optimistic today than he was on Wednesday. I'm optimistic that we'll be able to retrieve the eggs, but not sure how well they will do. I also found out today that one of my favorite infertility bloggers Jenica from http://www.asliceofstyle.com just had her miracle twin boy and girl, Harris and Goldie after 3 rounds of IVF. I'm so excited for her and hope I have a similar outcome.
I also found out today that I am taking 4 times as much Gonal-F than regular people. Normal IVF people take about 125 to 225 units, and I'm up to the 525 units/day. I feel much more emotional than I should. Although, I haven't cried for no reason yet... just gotten teary eyed. I think I have about 2 more days of shots and then my egg retrieval on Wednesday. So now I am on cycle day 8 and feel ok. I'm getting sick of the shots and the meds 3x a day. But it will be totally worth it if we are blessed with a baby.
I'm so glad we have insurance to help cover the costs of IVF. We are extremely lucky and blessed to be able to do this. I know a lot of people that can't afford to do it and are on the brink of giving up. Nate and I aren't to that point yet.
I'm getting excited! I've waited so long for this. I think Heavenly Father is teaching me patience, but I wish he could have given me a different way to help me learn. #infertilitysucks
Here's what my belly looks like after shots so far:
Sunday, July 3rd - Aunt Flow (late by 4 days, just to mess with me). Started to take Estradiol every 12 hours to slow my cycle
Friday, July 8th - Baseline ultrasound and blood draw. I have 12 follicles on my left ovary and 8 on the right. There may be a cyst on the left side. Blood results looked good and on Saturday I started taking Gonal F - 450 units and low dose HCG - 50 units
Monday July 11th - blood draw, continue with injections
Wednesday July 13th - blood draw and ultrasound. There were about 7 larger growing follicles and a handful of smaller ones during the ultrasound. There was also a little bump at my endometrial lining.. Not sure if it something to worry about. Hopefully it's not a blockage or something. So I was slightly emotional because I read that they can cancel the IVF cycle if there are not enough eggs to retrieve. I talked with my nurse, Jeanette, and she said, it is still early and there is still time for the smaller ones to grow. She said my numbers were a little lower than usual but she still said I was responding well to the treatment. Since Saturday, I have been injecting myself with the following:
Gonal-F FSH hormone- 450 units at night
Low Dose HCG - 50 units at night
Funny story: Last night (tuesday), we went to see the 8:55 pm showing of The Shallows (Crazy movie!). I have tried to stay consistent for my injections - taking them at 8:50 every night, so I brought my shots and had to have Nate give me the shots in the car before going into the theater. If anyone saw us, it would be like we were pushing drugs haha! Last nights shots hurt the worst for some reason. The previous days, it wasn't too bad. I must have hit a nerve or something...
So tonight, I'll do the same injections, and then tomorrow I'll do the following:
Gonal F- FSH hormone - 525 units at night
Low dose HCG - 50 units at night
Cetrotide - 1 Kit
Friday, July 15th Tonight I took 3 shots and they all hurt. I think it's getting in my head. I have 3 bruises on my stomach now and am running out of room to inject myself. I had an ultrasound and blood draw this morning and Dr Heiner found about 8 follicles that were getting bigger, so that's really good. He was much more optimistic today than he was on Wednesday. I'm optimistic that we'll be able to retrieve the eggs, but not sure how well they will do. I also found out today that one of my favorite infertility bloggers Jenica from http://www.asliceofstyle.com just had her miracle twin boy and girl, Harris and Goldie after 3 rounds of IVF. I'm so excited for her and hope I have a similar outcome.
I also found out today that I am taking 4 times as much Gonal-F than regular people. Normal IVF people take about 125 to 225 units, and I'm up to the 525 units/day. I feel much more emotional than I should. Although, I haven't cried for no reason yet... just gotten teary eyed. I think I have about 2 more days of shots and then my egg retrieval on Wednesday. So now I am on cycle day 8 and feel ok. I'm getting sick of the shots and the meds 3x a day. But it will be totally worth it if we are blessed with a baby.
I'm so glad we have insurance to help cover the costs of IVF. We are extremely lucky and blessed to be able to do this. I know a lot of people that can't afford to do it and are on the brink of giving up. Nate and I aren't to that point yet.
I'm getting excited! I've waited so long for this. I think Heavenly Father is teaching me patience, but I wish he could have given me a different way to help me learn. #infertilitysucks
Here's what my belly looks like after shots so far:
There are two things about this picture: 1. I am very white. 2. there are two little bruises by my left arm that are from injecting myself.
The good thing is that I don't feel bloated yet like some others have been. I've rambled in this post and think it's time to do a new one for week 2
13 Weeks
This week was about the same. At night, I can start to feel my belly a little bit bigger. It's the weirdest feeling. The biggest, most exciting thing about this week is that I am one week away from the 2nd trimester! To celebrate, I threw up for the first time. In the shower. I had just drunk a ton of water so that was mostly what came up. I will say this, I can't have domino's pizza anymore... Throughout this pregnancy, I have gagged on tooth paste so much that I have almost thrown up. I had to get a different kind to see if that would help.
Nate is really busy at work and sometimes I don't see him until like 930. When he does get home at a decent time, we really like to take Copper for a walk, because that's all I can do right now.
We also helped Madelyn and Tyler move into their new apartment that smells like dead cats. I did so much "helping". I mainly supervised and cleaned :)
Nate is really busy at work and sometimes I don't see him until like 930. When he does get home at a decent time, we really like to take Copper for a walk, because that's all I can do right now.
We also helped Madelyn and Tyler move into their new apartment that smells like dead cats. I did so much "helping". I mainly supervised and cleaned :)
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